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*xin clears the cobwebs n sweep away the dust*

Its been so long since I blogged. Alrights. Though its been oni lyke urms..three days. Haha. Duno why it just feels so long to me. Perhaps, its 'cause too many things are happening bahs. Oh wells. Been feeling veri lethargic recently. Duno why.

Hmms. Ysd Jer came to find me. Wee! Finally lorhs. Haven seen him lyke fer a week n one day till yesterday. You can't imagine how happy I wus lorhs. Ask flor. She saw my expression when I read the msg in which he said he wana cum find me. =D *hapi hapi grin* Haha. I feel so dumb. *shrugs* Am so dumbly in love wif this guy.. =P Watched firewall. Hey. I lyke the movie! haha. though I wus rather slpy thruout. haha. =) i love you dear..

Today's another hapi hapi day! hmms. I had my first pizzahut date with my gorgeous hellmate! *hyperventilates* but before I go into details abt that. I hafta mention the prelude. Haha. Both of us ran out of school lyke two mad women. Two teachers saw us. haha. Kinda dumb. Then we were sweating so unglam-ly. hmms. N we saw the big director at the busstop. N my dear hellmate started to panic. *hmmphs..i m jealous* Haha. She's so cute lahs. =) Alrights. End of prelude. The date wus great =D We practically tok abt everything under the sun. hmms. Crapped wld be a better word. haha. Kept luffing n luffing. People at pizzahut must haf thought that we are mad. We even thought of pulling a prank on the staffs when settling the bill. But too bad, we were in school uniforms. We are good students whu maintain the gd reputation of pjc. Haha. Shared icecream. Hmms. I miss swensens icecream mans!! *argh* Oh yarhs. I forgot that the choc fudge wus at the bottom. N ended up we finished everything then discovered abt the fudge. Geez. And I started fooling wif the fudge. Opps. My hellmate wus so evil lahs. She videoed me down. SEVEN VIDEOS of my dumbness. Omg! I oni got TWO precious ones of her. =D I m the angel, she's the devil. =D She's just sososo cute! haha. Geez. I'm showing signs of lesbianism. Kidding. I'm straight. haha. Oh wells. Its good to see you smiling n enjoying urself =D Dun miss me too much when you're away on ur camp. Though I noe you wld.. just refrain abitbit okays? =D *bhb-ism showing* I LOVE YOU, quackiex =D

hmms. Had quietened dwn quite abit recently. As in, I am less noisy as compared to the usual me. Think von's worried fer me. I'm quite fine lahs. Silence fer others may mean that they're sad or sth. But fer me, I'm thinking. Or rather, I chose to retreat back into my own world. Veri weird, isn't it? I'm not unhappy, yet I'm doing this. Rather contradictory. *shrugs* Oh wells, I tend to be unrealistic at times. Thinking that all will turn out as to what I haf expected and when things doesn't, I'll be utterly upset and stuffs. Immature thinking, you might think. But thats just me. Duno why. I dun lyke the world that we live in. Too much complications. I lyke simplicity. I rather be simple-minded n be ignorant abt all that is happening ard me. There is just too much complications everywhere. And it makes ppl confused n lost. I do too, 'cause I dun understand why things hafta turn out in a certain way n can't accept it as it is. hmms. why can't relationships last forever? why can't ppl stay in love forever? why can't breakups cease to exist? why can't everything just turn out to haf a happy ending? why must things be so unpredictable? why must things change? why must ppl change? why can't one stay happy forever? *argh* alrights. I shall calm dwn. hais. Its partly because of all these that we feel so insecure abt our own future. We're living in a world where everything is unpredictable. Where hypocrites, backstabbers, jerks n bastards exist. Hah. Scary world. =( argh. I dun even noe what the hell am I toking abt anemore. I shldn't be feeling this way abt things. By right, I shld be lyking these situations, 'cause I'm a risktaker. Perhaps, its 'cause I've gotten too sick n tired of these complicated challenges in life.. too tired to get hurt.. too tired to endure ane heartbreaks.. too tired to deal wif things bahs.. Perhaps, thats why I wana stay in my own world.. where everything is simple n happy=)

`I have this dream..wishing that I can be always happy with the one whu truly loves me..